Just thinking out loud

While I was examining the chipped paint on the wall tonight, I decided I could use my time to write something here instead.

I went to a bridal shower tonight for a friend we've known since our freshman year of college. Her name is Lindsay McGuire. It was really fun, they played games and opened gifts. Two of her sisters were there as well as her mom and of course all her best friends and roommates. We played a couple games--one involving a squirt gun and another involving touching our toes to draw our hand on a piece of colored paper. Towards the end her fiance came with five other guys and we blindfolded Lindsey and each guy kissed her on the cheek and then she had to guess which one was McKay. It was really funny because we labeled each guy with letter and McKay was "B", after he kissed her she immediately said "well that's not him". The second go around McKay planted a real kiss on her to end the game because it was apparent she wouldn't guess right anyway. It was really funny.

The whole bridal shower thing was all-over very fun and I'm excited for Lindsey, but at the same time it made me a bit sad. My roommates and best friends (Melissa, Lauren and Mallory), everyone but Nikki pretty much, are leaving for home almost immediately after finals. That's in less than four weeks. Lauren's going on a mission and Melissa may be going to Mexico to visit her bf, Fernando's home at the end of June. Nikki will be here for spring term living with me, but then she's going back home to Hawaii for the rest of the summer. Mallory's leaving UT for good, she's getting married in Connecticut and moving to Tennessee with Wendall. I'm just thinking about all the things I want to do with my friends in my life--I want them to be there for bridal showers and bachelorette parties, but I just don't think it will ever happen with all of us splitting up and going our separate ways in just a few weeks. I guess I'm just sad that they won't be there to do all these special things with me because I'm not even engaged yet. Everything is happening so fast I don't want to say goodbye to my friends at the end of this year because it's going to be goodbye for a long long time. It all just makes me so very sad. They mean so much to me and they just don't even know how much they've changed my life and who I am. When I said I was sitting here staring at the wall I was only telling half the truth, I'm really sitting here trying to stop all my tears and not worry so much about everything going on. Sometimes I just can't help it though, it seems like I never get quite exactly what I hope for in so many aspects of life. This is just something else I am going to have to give up. I'm going to miss our late night talks til 2 am because we didn't see each other all day, and I'm going to miss our tooth-brushing parties at night and bumping into everyone else who's trying to cook in our 4x4 ft kitchen. How do you say goodbye when you know things are never going to be the same ever again?

Weather Woes

This is our forecast for the next couple days...


It's completely snowing right now. What happened to our warm, beautiful, spring?? This is wack. Snow today, warmness back to normal by the weekend?! Yesterday the omnious dark clouds brought with them cold air, then rain, then HAIL, then more rain for the rest of the day. There were people still walking around campus in their spring clothes--flipflops and t-shirts and shorts. Poor souls. It got cold real fast. Luckily, Scott and I got to his car just seconds before the hail started. Then we pulled into a complex with covered parking until it stopped a few minutes later! It was freezing cold and wet the rest of the day. Simply miserable.


AND THIS

is what i woke up to this morning:

I thought it was IN like a Lion, not OUT like one... where on earth did that lamb go???

When the cLouds roll in

Did you know that it is supposed to SNOW tonight? I believe the last time I checked--it's SPRING, and it's MARCH, nearly APRIL---either the groundhog really was on crack, or Mother Nature is grumpy these days. No joke, i just put my snow coats and gear away. I shoved them in a bag and put them in the most difficult access spot in my closet. So not fair.

Just Another Manic Monday

The elliptical kicked my butt today, but I have to admit that excercises does feel so good. Getting to the gym is probably the hardest part, and fighting the occasional boredum, but man, there's nothing that beats that rush of accomplishment and all the feel-goodness of a good workout. I kind of wish I had the courage to do one of the classes at the gym. I watch them through the windows and it looks fun, and intense. But they also all look so coordinated...which i am not. I would feel so dumb going in there for a class one day and being the only person who has no clue what the next move is coming up when everyone else does.

Anyway. Like i said the elliptical kicked my trash today: 3.5miles, 40 min, 4800 steps, 380 calories. Wa-BAM!

Sunday nights depress me. There's just something about them. I think it's because after a long weekend, you either party hard Friday and Saturday or rush around trying to do the hundreds of things you haven't been able to get done all week, either way it leaves you more exhausted than relaxed---and definately not ready to start a new week. Mondays are the worst.

just checking in

i got a lot to say right now. but no time to say it.

SURPRISE

I threw a surprise party for Lauren! Her birthday is June 23rd so we never are together to celebrate it nor are we together for her 1/2 birthday because it's always during Christmas break--SO I threw her a 3/4 birthday!! It was a movie night theme It was awesome. And expensive. But very awesome.

Twiddling My Thumbs

It's incredibly harder to keep secrets than I ever thought it would be. There's a few things going on right now that I'm just not supposed to say anything about--and I really really really want to!! I let little things slip sometimes, but now looking at all the little things and how many people I've told the little things too---I'm not doing very good with this secret-keeping stuff. I can't even write it here even though I don't think anyone reads this!! sad day.
I've actually got 2 surprises, one's a short-term one and the other is longer-term. At least I'm in cahoots with others about the short-term surprise so I can talk about it to other people openly. It's actually really fun. I'll tell all about it on Saturday.

Anyway, just trying to get some ickLe frustrations out

--me

sPRiNg

Isn't the first signs of spring simply wonderful? When the bite of cold air is replaced by a warm breeze, the trees begin to grow green again, and the birds are singing their hearts out like crazy outside your window? I love it! It's the perfect temperature outside, not too hot, no longer cold. Just right.

Took a walk with Scott the other day, we threw the frisbee back and forth across the road as we walked to the campus parking lot where he'd left his car. It was beautiful outside. It was great just to be out in the warm sunshine and not wear a coat or closed toed shoes. I skipped my one friday class just to enjoy it all.

Can't wait to jump in that pool the first hot day we get. It's going to be a great summer.

Long Time No Blog

So I decided to start this back up again, but I make no promises in keeping it updated. I'm finding it harder and harder to keep up with my journal. This is sad because this is a crazy amazing time in my life and I will want to remember all of it!! So I will try to do better. Promise.
I don't promise that anything I write will be of any remote interest to you, but that's my choice--you're choice is that you don't have to read it. :) Happy day!!